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The urge to write down my thoughts really began when Jennifer died. Each post in this blog is marked by the number of days since her passing, ordered from most recent to least. If it is your first time here, I suggest starting from the beginning.

Cleaning Stalls (Day 398)

Over the past few days, I have been deep cleaning the horse stalls in the barn one by one. This unpleasant physical task was way overdue...

Second Christmas (Day 385)

Christmas 2023 technically falls beyond the “year of firsts”; yet, even so, this second Christmas without you feels significant because...

Sydney’s Engaged! (Day 392)

Our little “Sydney Bean” is engaged! What a wonderful way to start off the new year! Oh, how I wish you could be here to share this...

New Year Sunrise (Day 392)

It seems fitting to start off the new year, 2024, with a sunrise. It is cold, so here I sit on my east-facing front porch, in a warm...

Auld Lang Syne (Day 391)

On the eve of the new year, 2024, I take pause to reflect on things old and new. It’s been over a year now since you’ve been gone, and I...

Closure (Day 370)

Every grieving person has to process three fundamental questions: 1) Why did this happen?; 2) How long will I feel this way?; and 3)...

First Anniversary Candle (Day 365)

Today is the first anniversary of your last breath here with us. The final milestone of the “year of firsts”. I burned a candle in the...

One Year (Day 365)

A year, in the measure of time, can be expressed in many ways: twelve months, four quarters, 26 bi-weekly pay periods, 52 weeks, 365...

Jenna’s Birthday in Telluride (Day 351)

Today is Jenna’s 19th birthday and her first since you left us. We are all gathered together in Telluride, CO for our first Thanksgiving...

New Job (Day 356)

After 3-1/2 years of unplanned early retirement, and just over a week from the one-year anniversary of your death, tomorrow I start a new...

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